Thursday, December 23, 2010
merry christmas, i could care less
Christmas is supposed to be a happy time. You're surrounded by friends and family and you get tons on amazing presents. And yet, all I find myself thinking about this time of year is what is missing. One of my favorite parts of Christmas has always been watching Maggie May rip open her presents and get so excited when she gets all the paper off of it. Now, I find myself getting sick to my stomach just thinking about opening presents. And I feel so stupid because it was just a dog and this is the second Christmas since it happened and I should just be over it by now. But i'm not, and I feel like such a failure because of it. I just feel like Christmas is ruined for me, and I don't know how to fix it. I'm trying to be strong because I know people think it is completely crazy for me to be so sad over something that I should just get over, and yet here I sit, alone in my room, crying while writing a blog entry. I want tomorrow to be happy and I want to get through opening my presents without having a breakdown and i'm hoping that getting this all out will help. It seems like the only way to make me feel better during hard times is to write it all out in this blog. I will do this, and I will be strong.
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It's more like 'Marry Christmas, Kiss my ass.'
You'll get through it in the end. Always keep your head up, and remember, she wouldn't want you to be sad over her. She'd want you to be happy with all the memories of her and the presents she opened. I know it's going to be hard, even if it's been 2 or 10, it'll always hurt, but you have to remember, she wouldn't want you upset over her, would she? No, she'd want you to enjoy your christmas and to have a good time, and she'd probably want you to open a present or two up for her. ;)
Have a very Merry Christmas and a very good new year. (:
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